STILL DAY 3:

I feel great and shit both at the same time, I now have a friggin throat cold and keep coughing my guts up. I originally thought it was my lungs trying to get all the Tar and Nicotine out of my system.

I weighed myself at work - EIGHTY FIVE KILOGRAMS!! I haven’t been that big in a long time, I knew I was hovering around the 82kg mark, but that extra three went straight onto my gut. My goal when I’ve made it through these grueling two weeks is to continue to lose weight and get down to 75kgs. I don’t care how long I stay at the 75kg level I just have to get there.

I didn’t want to leave work; when the clock was ticking from 4:30pm I could feel this mounting pressure on my shoulders, as if I have to do something - but what? It dawned on me, ciggies, beer, glass of red, darts… NOOOO!!! I had to overcome, what do I do? QUICK start listening to Tony Robbins to get through - is it working? Nope, keep trying! it begins to leave when tea is served, my racing mind now starts to focus on my coughing - it hurts so much now.

I walked to work, I then walked home at lunch time, Kylie dropped me back to work, then I walked home again. I felt like I was a dog on Funniest Home videos never quite getting up that Slippery Slide. I seriously feel like I’m breaking the pattern, reading in the morning, walking everywhere (which is good while petrol is around $150/litre), although it’s only my 3rd day I think I’m progressing, they say it takes 30 days to break a habit - I’m 1/10th the way to breaking the habit that I called my lifestyle for over 6 months.

Kylie… god love her - went shopping today - she bought me what looks like a bloody 1kg bag of lollies - I can tell she’s really proud that I’ve made nearly 3 whole days (considering that she hasn’t bought me razors for the last month). The thought is there, but I’m also trying to lose a few kilos!! I think she doesn’t want me to look good when I’m walking past all those hotties to work!

I feel really dehydrated, I’m going to fill my esky with cordial and jump in.

Now my next dilemma James Bond or Underbelly?!